Sunday, January 11, 2015

Hidden Bruises

The unrealistically high expectations the society and the consequences of it all

When I was a child of seven
My grandmother said to me
"your hair isn't as long as hers"
When I grew a little
 she said, " you are not as tall as her"
When I grew older, she told me,
"You don't score as well as her".
She thought she was helping me.
But she killed my confidence
She killed me.

When I was a girl of thirteen
they bullied me
They told me I was a boy
They told me I was not thin
They told me I was a loser.
They thought they were being funny
But they wrecked my self esteem.
They wrecked me.

Sick and tired,
I covered my bruised self esteem
A facade of a sort.
I hid it from the world then
I hide it from the world now. 

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Melancholy ascends as I keep my dresses away, one by one. Winter is overhead. Mother is stacking tracksuits in my closet. Tears. She's been telling me to dress safe. "Wear tracksuits to college every day. You don't want to fall sick." Are you sending me to war, mother? You know I am not strong enough (physically and mentally) for that. Also, tracksuits are only (perhaps) worn on Mondays in order to mourn the sudden demise of the weekend which rises from the sands like a fallen soldier at the end of every week (duh) but unfortunately, can't hold itself for too long.
I decide that I am not going to live my life in thick, ugly tracksuits with a certain word studded across my butt (even though I know I am going to end up in them). Honestly speaking, I love experimenting. I feel like one should not stick to certain clothes/outfits/styles (ugly tracksuits alert- i don't know how that happened but I see it every winter). Instead, they should experiment with their clothes and other people's also. For example, the uneven jacket in the following outfit is my mum's. Lulz. Oftentimes, I wear my dad's over sized graphic tees with leggings and boots and of course a leather jacket- which should be a staple in all our closets (that's the only reason I look forward to winters). I like to keep my outfits laid back yet presentable. 
Outfit details- Dress: LBD, Jacket: Mother's; Random black leggings; Boots: Zara; Ring: Youshine


Monday, September 1, 2014


It's been a while. What's up? 
So, college started a month ago and I am studying English and French. College has made me productive and pretty damn overconfident. The one thing I am really happy about is the fact that I am not lazy and distracted like I was six months ago. I feel like I wasted 2013 being in a perpetual state of laziness. But now, I know what I gotta do. And I gotta do what I gotta do. 
Moving on to the outfit...
I was saying something to ze mother okay ._.

Wearing: Uneven peplum top- thrifted; Rugged jeans; Leather jacket & Sandals- Zara; Yellow Clutch-; Sunglasses- Asos

I bought the white peplum top from one of the thrift shops in Sarojini. I hadn't been there in a year until last week. Those horrible sheer clothes were enough to make me swear off thrift markets forever. But last week I was on the lookout for clothes for my best friends for our Fresher's so we ended up at the great ol' Sarojini Nagar. The market did have some good stuff, surprisingly. So if you're in the mood to shop- go ahead. Don't forget to take an umbrella though.
I used the leather jacket more like an accessory because it is still very hot and a leather jacket in this bitchass bipolar weather (tropical country, ya'll) is a nightmare. But when you slide into your four year old jeans, glide the zipper up and button them without squeezing your stomach in, you say to yourself, "F***.THE.WEATHER".
Moving on, white sandals/shoes can be worn at any point of the day or night which makes them extremely versatile. So investing in a pair of white shoes/sandals is a good idea all together.
What do you think?